2 posts tagged “grad school”

i see a fork in the path ahead of me.  choices to be made...so hard to know which is right.  what do i want out of life?....well i kind of know that.  i want to do meaningful work - both in the job and ministry sense.  i want to serve God and please Him in all i do.  i want to be married. i want children. i want a home full of laughter and love and a garden to grow things in. is it attainable...i don't know.  that depends on another (unknown) person and God i suppose.  is a masters the right thing to be putting my time, energy, and money into then?  i'm not so sure. as i've said in previous posts, my experience with uw and the dmlis program is so different...so much less...than what i'd thought. hoped. if i was happy with it i might not feel like this, but i'm not and i do.  as i told a friend earlier today, i'm having a hard time with the thought that i'll be unhappy, frustrated and a bit bitter for the next four years.  i can grin and bear it...but should i?  i've worked so long and hard, carried so much hope and anticipation within me to be working on my mlis - to have it done by the time i'm 30. but...i'm here, i'm doing it, and it's not what i thought.

here are some of the other things i could be doing: getting involved with the teen ministry at church, saving money and actually going on mission trips, saving more money to buy a house, being less stressed at work (because school stress carries over), being less stressed in general, having less guilt - usually brought about by not being as dedicated a student as i used to be, growing plants on my little apt. patio, crocheting more, reading more, being a better friend/sister/daughter,

i got into a competitive program though. and the degree would allow me to be a librarian if i moved to another state (it doesn't seem so necessary where i live now), and what would people think? what would my parents think/say? it's quitting right? am i a quitter?

Well, I got great news this week:  I've been accepted to my grad school of choice - UW.  This fall I will start working on my Masters in Library and Information Science.  w00t!  I'm psyched and nervous to be re-entering academia.  I hope that I quickly find the right balance between work, school, and life.  One of the things I'm most excited about is that even though I'll be getting my degree through a distance program, I won't be alone.  I'll be joined by a few great local librarians, including D!  loved getting my English Lit degree, but I've waited years to be studying this.

It will surely be *deep husky whipser* the most phenomenal library science program ever created.