2 posts tagged “literature”
Holy Sonnets
XIV
Batter my heart, three-personed God, for you
As yet but knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend;
That I may rise, and stand, o'erthrow me, and bend
Your force to break, blow, burn, and make me new.
I, like an usurped town, to another due,
Labour to admit you, but Oh, to no end.
Reason, your viceroy in me, me should defend,
But is captived, and proves weak or untrue.
Yet dearly I love you, and would be loved fain,
But am betrothed unto your enemy:
Divorce me, untie or break that knot again,
Take me to you, imprison me, for I,
Except you enthrall me, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish me.
~John DonneAhhhh! Why?! Why do we have to make such big and hard decisions? Why can't we do it all? (yeah...that was rhetorical) I am often finding myself torn between wanting to be a librarian and wanting to continue my English Lit education. I love learning and thinking about lit, especially the medieval stuff, and I even enjoy formulating my thoughts through writing, presentations, and mini lectures. I would really enjoy being a professor - no highschoolers thank you - but I also feel called to librarianship. And in all practicality I can't do both. I'm already going to be in school for at 7-9 years. I don't think I could go another 5 or 6. At some point you have to apply what you're doing, not just learn about it. I just wish there was some nice, inexpensive way to do it all - or I didn't feel so strongly about both. I'm going with the library thing because I love it, feel called to it, and it's more practical for me, but it's still tough.
I think it's especially tough because I'm graduating in a few
months. It's very scary and sad to think this part of my life is
almost done. I don't want it to be but I know that (at least at
this stage in the game) without the structure of school and deadlines,
I don't study this stuff on my own. I guess that's something I
want to change about myself eventually. I want to be discipled
enough to read Joyce's Ulysses and Dostoevsky's Brothers Karamazov and Virgil's Aeneid on my own and to seek out interaction and discussion of the works.
